My biggest personal challenge from a personality perspective is allowing myself to get pulled in many directions. It isn’t my perspectives or beliefs that are swayed but how to address them and contribute to the right efforts that often leads me in more directions than I can handle. As a result, this website was allowed to slip away.
It was a tremendous mistake. I misinterpreted the growth of this site and used that as a measure of its importance. Yet, it was growing nicely, but not nearly at the pace as other endeavors. To be more specific, I was reaching more people with a conservative message on my political sites than the Biblical message on this site. What a terrible mistake to make, assuming that bulk was important. Thank the Lord, for I now realize it’s more important to reach one person with a proper Biblical perspective than a million people with a conservative, secular message.
It has taken much time to unravel myself from that world. What most here do not know is that I was working not only on spreading a conservative political message but also in promoting a federalist concept of limited government through the formation of a new political party. It was a mistake and at the end of the day the secular components of the party ended up bringing about its downfall.
I was lost, pulled in a direction that seemed logical and positive but that turned out to be nothing more than a distraction from the things I truly want to do with my time in this world. Spreading the Gospel and working with people through their spiritual challenges have always been my calling, yet I forsook them for a time because it seemed like we were heading in the wrong political direction as a nation. We still are, but I now realize it’s not my place to battle powers and principalities in that regard.
That’s not to say I will no longer be politically active, but it will no longer be my primary focus. My virtual life is here with the Judeo-Christian family we have built. I am so sorry for disregarding it for so long. Over the next few days, weeks, and even months I will attempt to rebuild what we had here and continue the mission from which I allowed myself to get distracted. It was sinful to fall into the secular trap of “get a voice here so you can spread the Gospel later.” I believe I’ve even written about the trap, yet I allowed myself to fall prey to it.
Thank you all for being patient over these past few months. Returning to the primary calling of spreading the Word of God is going to take time and won’t be easy, but I know it’s possible. All things are possible with the Lord.